Ashley Victoria Jean Wolpert

hey ash....this is going to be a hard one.  Uncle Mark and I went to bed last night talking about you.  Remembering how we woke up last year with a phone call from your dad that would change everyone's life forever.  I know you can see how much your mom and your dad ache for you everyday.  They miss you so much.  We ALL miss you so much.  You left us with two things, AshleyWoo.  Your beautiful daughter, who is you upside down, inside out, every-which-way you look at her, AND a lesson in love.  That's what it's all about. Love.  No matter what anyone has done, or said....or not said...in the end, it's all about love.  You loved in your life! That was seen by everyone who came to remember you last year.  I can only hope to touch that many lives!  You were loved and still are.  Family and friends have reached out to eachother in one way or another....you showed us that we all need to do that, no matter what.  Keep showing us how to love.  You more than anyone know the meaning of the Greatest love of all.  I love you Ash!

ashley, last year at this time you were taking your exam for school and called me at  work, sounding like you were crying,,,telling me that you failed,,,,ha ha,,,joke was on me,,,you passed and sang over the phone....all these memories have been flooding my mind of you,,,what you were doing last year at this time and not knowing what or how long we would have you with us....everyday i cry for you and alexandria,,,,,it's not fair that she doesn't have her mommy to hold and kiss her, and to have a that special bond between mother and child...She'll miss what i had with you, as i watched you grow up...all those great memories that i have of you, i can at least, show them to alexandria , because you know that i kept all your school and baton stuff, dolls, toys, just alot of little things for her to go through...she already likes to try on your baton costumes and your prom dresses too....she's a girly,girl....we all miss you so bad ashley,,,it's hard....be with us this week-end and send kisses down to us....i love you...ps did you help toka pass her test????

We missed you out on the island this weekend! I dont think me and you have ever partied out there together?? i know you would have had a blast! you always did no matter where you were. i hope you like the flower i put out for you! i still cant beleive itss been almost a year.. we wish you were here with us ash..you dont even know. we talk bout you allll the time..and we all have def have some crazy stories..and many more!! LOL! you will never be forgotten and things will never be the same without you. i love you and miss you so much. we all do..so please just keep us strong and  and keep watching over us.<3 ya

my Ashley,,,well Lee had another big Banger on the island last night and all everyone could think about was YOU.....your gang misses you so much & they still are having a hard time dealing with the loss of their Ashley....especially H...she wants you back....and needs you to keep her strong.....kelly was there just being her funny self, jillly, marci, jess, ray, toka & pam telling stories about you last summer....miss marci will be there for alexandria when she needs to understand what it's like to lose a parent at a young age...and so will the rest of your friends....they want to keep your memory and life alive for her.....we all know that you were with us last night,,,we felt you....l love you    ^i^

Went by Dewey Beach yesterday on my way to Ocean City...all i could think about was last summer and our weekend trip to Stoo's place, and goin out to the Rusty Rudder to see Burnt Sienna and how you thought the lead singer was soooo hot!  Illegally parking in the unfinished condos and peeing there too...then meeting the people that were beside the guys hotel room that we were hanging out with and eating all there brushetta or whatever that nasty stuff was...then you jumpin in the white caddy "taxi", pam riding down the street in teh back of that bike cart and Stoo running around looking for her getting yelled at by the cop for crossing the street before it was time...then we met those guys and me and Rachel ended up sleeping in a taco and you in a frat house!  Showing up the next morning missing the string to your sandal and us singing our orders to the waitress @ IHOP! Nothing will ever replace those times Ash...it feels like it was just yesterday we were having the time of our lives and you were just beginning to live.  Its so unfair that we will never ge the chance to make more memories...we will just keep the ones we have close to our hearts and chereish them forever!  I LOVE YOU & MISS YOU<3

Oh Ash,,,here goes another day in my life ,,,just woke up and as always thinking about you......& Alexandria....Had a good session with Dr. Sova yesterday,,she's really a big help with trying to get through day to day,,,,,you would have liked her,,,she's pretty cool too...Aunt Sissy goes to her too,,,Ha,,, looks like everyone needs a shrink to talk to theses days...found some video tapes of you when you were 12 or so,,,taken at our old house on 1060 Park Ave...they are so funny,,,it's you & Theresa goof-n off up in my bed room...you have  one of your baton costumes on and as usual,,you are performing and dancing...trying to lip sic to Mariha  ,,,"you're on fire" ,,,rolling around on the floor and the other one is when you, Amy and H are tormenting the hell out of "Keeter",,,poor dog....i have to get copies made of that to give to Amy & H...they'll love that one....but seeing you in those videos when you were young just brought back the fact that you are really gone from my life.....Trying to be strong and cope with this,,,but it's hard Ash...So help me out now and then,,,,i need it ok???   Today is a river day with Merle, Barb, Steve & your teacher Ann.....Hope to see the girls out,,,cause it's "Christmas in July" on Lee's island,,,remember last year and how much fun everyone had,,,then going back to the cabin  @ 2a.m. on Ed's boat blaring rap music, dancing & the guys at the other cabin coming up and Ed wanting to know " what the hell are you doing ,,inviting yourself up to my cabin....remember ,,,,,Ed was making sure the guys were not some "white thugs"...what a night....Be with us today on the river and take care of those who loved you and miss you so much...i love you ...

ash i know last summer you went through some stuff and now i am too i need you so bad right now i know i could have ran to u no matter what and asked you for help with this i want to have a good summer im not 2 sure iam going to now but its ok i'll make it a good one no matter what i have to do i have so much i need to tell you and hear what u say and i cant say it to any1 else they dont get they dont understand what its like u know what i mean i know i am gonna prob go to see you tonight and talk to you i know im gonna cry but i need to right now i know there is prob tons of stuff from your mom and the girls out there they make it look great believe me  im sorry i havent been out in a while i have just been going through it and now it all blew up i know u could have related that to you right now no1 gets exactly how i feel i put my fav pic of our babies togethr up she loves cam she calls me camin's mommy lol she cant say his name right just yet she knows how to say mine but wont say it to me she is always tryin to shove the sippy in his mouth haha i love you please come to me dreams i need it miss you XOXOXOXOX

Welcome Home

When I am gone, release me. Let me go.

I have so many things to see and do.

You mustn't tie yourself to me with tears,

be happy that we had so many beautiful years.

I gave to you my love. You can only guess

how much you gave to me in happiness.

I thank you for the love you have each shown.

But now it's time I traveled on alone.

So grieve awhile for me, if grieve you must.

Then let your grief be comforted by trust.

It's only for awhile that we must part,

so bless the memories within your heart.

I won't be far away, for life goes on.

So if you need me, call and I will come.

Though you can't see or touch me, I'll be near.

And if you listen with your heart, you'll hear

all my love around you soft and clear.

And then, when you must come this way alone,

I'll greet you with my smile you've missed

and say 'Welcome Home'. 

So its officially river time!! We have been out there a couple weekends now and We all wish you were there with us!! I went over to the cabin with your mom and Ed the other night because I had to help big ed move a tv. I Walked out on the deck and looked into the river missing you like crazy and all the crazy times we had out there "THE GIRLS" we are def one of a kind! I wanted to just lose it thinking about the good times we had and how you wont be to have more of those crazy times, but i didnt want to do it infront of your mom! Its really hard for her to go there. I called her memorial day weekend to come out with me cil jess karen and yvonne but she didnt want to. She wasnt ready for it yet! Its going to be hard for her the first time out there on big eds boat so keep her strong!! Us girls will be there for her also!! I love you and miss you soo much!! Oh and I know you loved what me and jill did the other day on your grave! haha We were also jammin to your "dig" song on the way there

Hey Ashley Woo....

uncle mark,ben and i were just looking at your site and all the pictures and thinking bout ya.  also watched the video you and Stacey, Larry and Andrea helped me make for my college project. Remember"you you you don't know us"?  Mattmo was there too.  uncle mark hurt his back so he's really slow right now and Ben said you could have really gotten him in tag!  we saw Alex on the day before Mother's Day and watched her as she watched Lori's girls dance on stage.  She wanted to know when it was her turn.  Afterwards, she got up and got her grove on!  She's such a monkey!  Having her here is so comforting for so many people, you can't imagine. wrote something for you that i think you'd say to alex in her dreams.  it really helps me when i'm having a hard day thinking of you......

FOR ALEX

I know you're sleeping

But I must talk with you

They say you won't remember me

But I know that's not true.

Cause I've got a secret

That you and I can share

Just cause you can't see me

Doesn't mean that I'm not there

Cause when the wind blows through you hair

Know that I am there

Gently whispering your name.

And when the sun shines on your skin

You've found the place I'm hiding in

And I am wrapping you up warmly in my arms

And when you smell the sweet red rose

And it starts tickling your nose

Thats just me trying to make you smile

And when the rain falls from the skys 

Like teardrops from your eyes,

Turn your head and look to heaven above

Without a fear or care

Find a rainbow waiting there

And know it's me sending you my love

Don't be scared

I'm everywhere

I'll always care

I am there                          

hey ash i really hope u can see us all down here everytime i see alex i see u its crazy how much she looks just like u but with the blonde hair !  she showed me he new toy when i saw her and she showed camerin how to feed the dogs lol remember when she used to do that haha i miss u n just wanted to leave u some love i miss you

words cant explain how much we all miss you! we talk about you all the time. someone always has a new and funny story to tell. you had an impact on everyone you met. i hear certain songs all the time and they remind me of you..something always reminds me of you in some way. we know your always with us but we want you back..to make more memories..i think its about time we get that video out again of you breakin it down ...haha.. i just watch it and laugh.. but sad at the same time. you always were the life of the party...the one to have something nice to say..the one that was always up for anything..the one who had fun no matter what we were doing, where we were at, or who we were with..you were a great friend and i will never forget you. keep watching over us!! love ya girl

"A Pair of Shoes"

I am wearing a pair of shoes.
They are ugly shoes.
Uncomfortable shoes.
I hate my shoes.
Each day I wear them, and each day I wish I had another pair.
Some days my shoes hurt so bad that I do not think I can take another step.
Yet, I continue to wear them.
I get funny looks wearing these shoes.
They are looks of sympathy.
I can tell in others eyes that they are glad they are my shoes and not theirs.
They never talk about my shoes.
To learn how awful my shoes are might make them uncomfortable.
To truly understand these shoes you must walk in them.
But, once you put them on, you can never take them off.
I now realize that I am not the only one who wears these shoes.
There are many pairs in this world.
Some woman are like me and ache daily as they try and walk in them.
Some have learned how to walk in them so they don't hurt quite as much.
Some have worn the shoes so long that days will go by before they think about how much they hurt.
No woman deserves to wear these shoes.
Yet, because of these shoes I am a stronger woman.
These shoes have given me the strength to face anything.
They have made me who I am.
I will forever walk in the shoes of a woman who has lost a child.

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Today is Memorial Day, but big deal....last year at this time you were having fun out on the islands on the Susquehanna and getting ready to enjoy a day of boating with "Little Hooch"...Your buddies are now enjoying the river today, most likely wishing you were with them.........tell stories about all the good and unforgettable times last summer spend together....i just couldn't get myself together today to go out on Karen's pontoon cause all i would be doing is pretending to have a good time....Toka called also, trying to get me to come out ,but you know that it's not going to be easy for me to do the river this year....to many memories....oh, Ash still  hurting inside,,,i just want you back.....i love you   ^i^

happy mothers day

a pic of the big girl out at paps lol she was funny dippin he chips in ketchup

Summer will soon be here and It's River Time!!!! I really don't know how i'm going to handle it cause just being on the boat, floating around and knowing that last summer was your happiest summer you had in while....It won't be the same ever again ...You had so much fun out on the river with your friends and going to the islands to visit, camp fires, stoo throwing you off the jet ski and the snake in our cabin when you were feeding alexandria her lunch, i thought something was happening to alex and running into the cabin finding you standing on a chair with her, pointing to the floor...it was just a little black snake,,,even Kelese wasn't afraid of it......then when the water snake was swimming towards you,,,the snakes liked you that summer......just looking at all those great photos of you with your Rag Head cover, big, big sun glasses on your face & you tearing up some hard shell crabs...."River Turtle" will be truly missed by those who loved to be with you.....i know everyone will feel a pain in their heart, miss that certain laugh, and miss seeing a beautiful, fun loving girl with a big black thing wrapped aroung her head, just cruising down the river and enjoying life......Be with us on the river cause we need to feel your spirit is with us ...

i thought u'd laugh at this pic too